life’s simplest pleasures and life’s greatest joys : all hung from a clothesline.
Thanksgiving 2011 is forever etched in my memory as the day we lost our Baby J. So much sorrow. Then strangely within just a month’s time we experienced overwhelming joy finding out about Cashel! I was torn. Celebrating, sharing our news, but internally still breaking. As I planned for the arrival of our first born […]
In October 1988, President Ronald Reagan declared October as National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month saying, “When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, there isn’t a word to describe them.” […]
This year I’m writing on Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day from a changed perspective. Each day and year that passes since we lost our “Baby J” on November 24, 2011 I have changed and become different. On this day in the last two years I wrote. I wrote a simple post in 2013 and a […]
I was going to let today pass. I put on my necklace, that I wear almost daily and that was going to be it. My way to remember. My way to love. My way to miss. Then one of my favorite authors, who has also gone through 3 losses (2 miscarriages, and one was of […]
Today is such a bitter sweet day. Baby J (our first little one) was due 6.25.2012 and would be 2 years old, but last year on this is the day we found out we were pregnant with our wee Camper. Our first born boy Cashel is 2 in August and I’m daily overwhelmed by how […]
So most recently in my Trying to Conceive (TTC) Series I have shared “The end of one chapter” “Our Grief Process” and then as part of a new chapter “Is this Real?” and “Sharing our good fortune with Benjamin” – what a juxtaposition of emotion. I truly can’t speak to all trying to conceive situations, no […]
Oh my goodness. Could this be true. I stared at that test. Stared. And then thought, how will I tell Ben? It’s got to be good. He’s at work, I have time. My mind started racing. I knew what I wanted to do. I wanted to tell him in a fortune cookie. We got a […]
Just one month after my miscarriage I was walking through the holidays in a fog. Trying to enjoy, but the twangs of what should have been would hit me unexpectedly. Our family and friends were so supportive and I felt somewhat lost. What next? A thought that just kept haunting me. We took a round […]
Today I am remembering our Baby Jacobson who we lost on November 24, 2011. Almost 2 years ago. Baby Jacobson was due on June 25, 2012 – one year later the first anniversary of his due date, we found out about New Baby’s pregnancy. Talk about overwhelming. The statistics are staggering. So many women face […]
Let me start with saying that our trying to conceive journey was hard. At times I thought it was unbearable. I published our story, now a couple years later, because I was more ready. I say more because even now it takes my breath away when I hit the “publish” button. Some might wonder why […]